Emmalee's health scare

I cried myself to sleep last night as Tylor rubbed my back. We've had to take Emmalee in to see the doctor every day this week. We've been going through a little health scare with her ever since Monday morning when I noticed a big lump on the side of her neck. Both of her lymph nodes on the LEFT side only (above the collar) are enlarged (about 4cm by 4cm). So Monday was a joy, she had tons of tests and swabbing and blood drawn, it was a little traumatic for us all. Especially when we found out that two of the possibilities we're dealing with here is leukemia and lymphoma. Monday night the doctor said that some of the tests reveal that her chance of having leukemia has dropped to almost zero percent. So the more likely possibilities (that we are HOPING for) are atypical tuberculosis, cat scratch disease, mono or some kind of staph infection.

Then she spiked a fever ( 104.3) which we kept it under control with motrin. She slept almost 15 hours that night. We went back to the doctor yesterday to hear that more tests came out negative, which sounds like great news, right? Well it isn't. In fact, the more tests that come out negative, the more new tests she'll have to endure. One of which being a CT scan, for which she'll have to be sedated for.

Yesterday was such a great day though, I was really hopeful and confident that this is something 'silly' because she appeared so healthy and happy. Her energy and appetite was up, she was fun and adorable and silly and happy, it was just a wonderful day. Which made it all the more difficult and emotional for me. Last night after doctors and dinner, we went home and turned off all the lights and all 3 of us sat on the couch together under blankets to watch Shrek 2. (Yes, we've seen all 3 Shrek's and they're her favorite; Emmalee just idolizes Princess Fiona). Anyway, thoughout the movie, probably every 2 minutes Emmalee would grab my head towards hers and kiss me and say "I love you too, Mommy". Over and over and over she did this, and that is why I cried myself to sleep. I told Tylor it seems like this could be a little bit easier on us if she wasn't such a beautiful sweetheart. Truly. A beautiful sweetheart. It breaks our hearts.

So if we're lucky, this is all coming to an end real soon. The doctor just called a few minutes ago to check on Emmalee, to see if there's any new symptoms or if the lump has changed in size. She said she was going to call to check on the cultures and then call me back in a few minutes. We also go in at 2:30 today. So it appears that if nothing comes up positive, then we will have to sedate her right away for a CT scan to see if it's a tumor. Doctor says if it's any kind of mass/tumor they do not biopsy it, they will just remove it all together.

Please pray something comes out positive. We'll take ANYTHING!!